♥

I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head.
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed.
Dropping little reels of tape, to remind me that I'm alone.
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home.

There's a burning in my pride, a nervouse bleeding in my brain.
An ounce of peace is all I want from you, will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me, to just put it in my face.
When you try so hard to reach me, it is I that wanted space.

Hate me today. Hate me tomorrow. Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways. Yeah, ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.

I'm sober now for three whole months. It's an accomplishment that you've helped me with.
It's the one that always tore us apart and is the one thing I won't touch again.
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night.
When I was too busy waging wars on myself, you were tryna stop the fight.
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate.
You made me complimet myself when it was way too hard to take.
SO I'LL DRIVE SO FUCKING FAR AWAY, THAT I'LL NEVER CROSS YOUR MIND.
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind.
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This is my inspirational song that puts me through the day.
Without listening to it, I go completely bonkers.
Plus, it just reminds me of what has happened in my life.

It sucks.
I know you're better off without me. So why bother? I sure as hell know that I shouldn't waste my time on something as stupid as you. So, i'm moving on.
Haley Jo, [HaeJo], is now single once again.
Yipee.
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